Wednesday, December 1, 2010

It is now.

Many times I find that I run through life without looking around. I look at what I need to get down before a certain time and I end up focusing only on where I am going and not where I am.  It reminds of when I would be biking home from school on a hot afternoon, and all I would think about is getting home. I would pick the fartthest thing that I could see in a straight line, often a tall tree hanging over the road, and focus only on getting there as fast as I could.  Repeat and repeat until I got home.
It is almost the end of the semester. I can see the things in the distance that I am aiming for and it is easy to focus only on those things, hand in 1 more assingnment, 2 or 3 more write ups, 1 presentation then 6 exams and a performance, then I'll be done. I could spend the last three weeks focusing just on those things, studying, meetiing deadlines and completing tasks, but then what have I really accomplished?
God has placed me here, now, for what is here and what is now. If it is only deadlines and tasks to complete it is easy to forget that God is working in me through where I am. It is not just the last weeks of a semester that is affected by this. I have caught myself before thinking, once I am finished here, then my life will start. Or I'm just here to get through this, then I'll be on my way.
It seem the God has something else in mind. He doesn't tell us what tomorrow will bring. He doesn't tell us where we will end up next year or what our future's hold, He lets us know what we need to know for now, and today. Maybe that is His way of preventing us from living focused only on what is ahead and reminding us to live for Him now, where we He has placed us for now.

For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them.  But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.  Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
Matthew 6: 32-34